This post is not exactly about my dreams but the inception of my dreams.. the starting. How and When I realized what I wanted.
When I was a child I used to dream a lot... One of those dreams was to be SOMETHING someday. I took a lot of time to realize what exactly I wanted. Here I will share some of those little incidents...
My very first dream that I remember was to become a "Doctor". I don't know what pulled me towards this dream. Maybe the respect attached to this profession or it was the money factor. For years I lived dreaming that i'll become a doctor one day.But as I entered high school this dream of mine started fading away.
The next was to become a "Charted Accountant". This one came from a cousin of mine who completed his CA and started getting praises from everyone in the family. The child inside me was craving for all that attention. But this dream lasted till my 12th result came out. I was unhappy but not because of my low percentage. I knew I got what I deserved. It was something else that was bothering me. I was missing all the praises my friends were getting. Hmmm.. But life moved on. CA dream was still there inside my head. So I thought why not give it a try. So with not much time left for the entrance I started my preparations. Result shocked me yet again.. I FAILED !! I was so disheartened that I never thought of giving it another try. And that I today know was my biggest mistake. Not because I wanted to be a CA but because *I gave up*. I was never so weak and I never wanted to be weak.
I Moved on with life and the next destination was MBA. It was more of my mom's wish than my dream. Like all the other times this time I failed again. Poor scores and no great colleges in hand...Unlike before I decided to give it another try next year. Next year came and same thing happened again... I was completely broken from inside. Then I again settled for an easy solution. Did what my parents wanted me to do. Took admission into a not-so-great college. And somehow today I feel very relaxed. I am not happy but I am not sad either.
Maybe with all these failures I faced I learned just one thing - TO MOVE ON.
Somewhere inside I knew my life wasn't about these little failures.. I wanted something else..something big.
So I kept on dreaming.. From one to another..
I don't feel hurt anymore. and today it just passed my mind .. that all these were not my dreams (Doctor,CA,MBA).. these were just the means to reach to my destination.. My way to reach my dreams.. And the dream was to get all the attention and to become successful and to earn enough money to fulfill my other wishes. All I wanted and I still want is to become the focal point of my parents and my friends and everybody else's life.. Thats all that matters in my life. I wanna be "SOME-THING". And no matter how many more roads I have to travel to reach to this destination. I will never give up.. I will keep looking for ways -old or new. And it is my belief that I will Succeed. :)
My dreams are my paradise.. my dreams complete me and the only dream of my life is to keep on dreaming..!!
When I was a child I used to dream a lot... One of those dreams was to be SOMETHING someday. I took a lot of time to realize what exactly I wanted. Here I will share some of those little incidents...
My very first dream that I remember was to become a "Doctor". I don't know what pulled me towards this dream. Maybe the respect attached to this profession or it was the money factor. For years I lived dreaming that i'll become a doctor one day.But as I entered high school this dream of mine started fading away.
The next was to become a "Charted Accountant". This one came from a cousin of mine who completed his CA and started getting praises from everyone in the family. The child inside me was craving for all that attention. But this dream lasted till my 12th result came out. I was unhappy but not because of my low percentage. I knew I got what I deserved. It was something else that was bothering me. I was missing all the praises my friends were getting. Hmmm.. But life moved on. CA dream was still there inside my head. So I thought why not give it a try. So with not much time left for the entrance I started my preparations. Result shocked me yet again.. I FAILED !! I was so disheartened that I never thought of giving it another try. And that I today know was my biggest mistake. Not because I wanted to be a CA but because *I gave up*. I was never so weak and I never wanted to be weak.
I Moved on with life and the next destination was MBA. It was more of my mom's wish than my dream. Like all the other times this time I failed again. Poor scores and no great colleges in hand...Unlike before I decided to give it another try next year. Next year came and same thing happened again... I was completely broken from inside. Then I again settled for an easy solution. Did what my parents wanted me to do. Took admission into a not-so-great college. And somehow today I feel very relaxed. I am not happy but I am not sad either.
Maybe with all these failures I faced I learned just one thing - TO MOVE ON.
Somewhere inside I knew my life wasn't about these little failures.. I wanted something else..something big.
So I kept on dreaming.. From one to another..
I don't feel hurt anymore. and today it just passed my mind .. that all these were not my dreams (Doctor,CA,MBA).. these were just the means to reach to my destination.. My way to reach my dreams.. And the dream was to get all the attention and to become successful and to earn enough money to fulfill my other wishes. All I wanted and I still want is to become the focal point of my parents and my friends and everybody else's life.. Thats all that matters in my life. I wanna be "SOME-THING". And no matter how many more roads I have to travel to reach to this destination. I will never give up.. I will keep looking for ways -old or new. And it is my belief that I will Succeed. :)
My dreams are my paradise.. my dreams complete me and the only dream of my life is to keep on dreaming..!!
